Hard Headed

With the blogging world, I just want to share some thoughts and get some insight from others – sharing life together, but maybe helping out along the way. Some of it will be strictly spiritual, as I am a Christ follower and wouldn’t have it any other way, while other times it may be just flat out hysterical (at least to me) – so here we go…

The “God moment” I spoke of happened pretty late at night this week when I was attempting to get the kids into bed, later than expected, as usual. We were working on our little routine when I said something along the lines of “get in bed now, three seconds starts now, 1-2-3… and I look up and my oldest is staring back at me, deliberately disobeying me. Not a chance in the world was he going to go straight to bed, he had told me know by the look in his little innocent eyes.

First off, I wanted to be angry, but I love him, so I paused and thought about this on a “God level.” It was almost hypocritical of me to be mad at my three year old, when I’m 27 and do the same thing DAILY to my Heavenly Father. Think about it – how often do we hear the voice of God, and then simply say, “no – I’m not doing that.”

I reflect on my simple life and I can easily recognize stops along the way when I would slap God in the face, so-to-speak, with a reply such as “no,” or “I’m not really up for that right now, God,” or “not me – somebody else.” Does He get as disappointed when I say no, like I do when my children, whom I love, tell me no to my face? I’m sure He does, but thankfully He loves us unconditionally, and full of grace. He forgives when we mess up – He cleans up the brokeness and guides us towards the correct path when we wander.

This has taken its toll on me this week and I’ve recognized my own faults through my normal parenting duties. I pray for forgiveness when I’ve spouted out a hefty “no” to the Creator of the universe. And, I’m thankful He responds with a “child, you’re forgiven.”